Katie's Blog

after a series of bad events, family stress and close family friends deaths the weight has inevitably risen

and now i'm in panic mode

i reallyyy need to kick my butt in to gear

no silly tricks just good healthy food and exercise

...lets see how long this lasts

Photos from saturday night just gone have been put up, and they were a wake up call. On the actual night I didnt feel too bad in myself, but looking at those pictures makes me cringe

I've been super good this week, and have done a ton of exercise, feeling a lot better for it and my eating has been really really controlled so thats positive. Hopefully I can continue in this vein!

xxx

Despite a slight lapse with some ben and jerry's... i just went on a longer run than i can normally manage and now feel fantastic. Its amazing what a little sport can do for your mindset and confidence.

The next thing to sort is my bloody eating. With exams i make excuses for myself, I reward hard academic work with food... and i need to stop.

I have a big school occassion in two weeks, and dreading looking for a dress. I want to look nice in those pictures but have become camera phobic of late. If thats not an incentive to diet i dont know what is...

xxx

I have to admit, it has not been the most successful day food wise - i was doing so well...up until there was birthday cake in the sixth form common room... and then the cheeky handfuls of chocolate button were perhaps not the BEST idea...

I did manage to go on a truly fantastic run though - really really enjoyed it. Perhaps my focus of the next couple of months will be exercise, i just need to cut down on the crap.

xxx

This is all completely new to me, never done something like this before but i have faith that it will do me a lot of good.

Being a teenage girl, I want to remember these years as my happiest. I'm generally confident, and wish that was the case with my body. Ever since I quit the school teams due to pressures of school work and up and coming a levels, my weight has been really hard to control, and I think I have used stress and other issues to try and convince myself that its not my fault.

And you know what? Sometimes, its just better to be realistic, and own up to it. And its scary and I'm sure I'll get demotivated and feel like none of my hard work is doing any good at times, but hopefully it will be worth it.

I want to look back at my prom pictures, and my holiday pictures and be satisfied that I looked great, happy and confident.

I'll be damned if the powers of dairy milk and ben and jerrys are going to stop me!

So, to the next couple of months...!

xxxx